help me escape sin & confusion

by Sophie
(Chicago)

I need prayers to soften my heart & lead me back to Jesus. I was raised a Christian but as I grew older & drifted further & further from Him. for years I’ve not believed in anything & called myself an atheist.

I’ve just been so confused, conflicted, and lost lately…I think deep down I know that Jesus is what I need, but something inside me is stopping me. My heart has been hardened to Him & my stubbornness refuses to let him in.

When I was a teenager I started identifying as a lesbian & have lived in this lifestyle for years. When my last same sex relationship ended I felt so lost & broken. For years I’ve told myself that I was born this way & loving other women is a normal, healthy thing…and I surrounded myself with people that reinforced these ideas.

But deep in my soul I know it’s wrong. I know that I have strayed so far from God’s path for me. I feel so lost, broken, and alone. Homosexuality, pornography, drugs, and other worldly vices have not filled this hole inside me. They work for a bit and then always leave me feeling even more empty and defeated.

All of these feelings leave me so conflicted and confused, and I’m desperate to escape this hell I’ve created for myself.

Please pray for me to escape this lifestyle, to stop living by my own will, and to soften my heart so that I can finally accept Christ and let Him in.